Wrapping up 2005 in a short passage is impossible and I know it's a little too late to do this right now. Well, it's always better late than never. Probably I will just highlight some of the major events throughout the year.
REFLECTION ON 2005
Physical
I was down with Endometriosis in the month of April but miracle healed me in the month of May. It must be the power of God. Giving in to the liver stress that I found myself to have in the month of June was horrendous. This is because I just battling illness after illness. Thank God that my liver stress is sipping recovery little by little now.
Relationship
One word in my mind – Kevin, he was a friend, a listener and a soul mate that I have leaned on for the many years since 1999. Our friendship was never jeopardized even though I rejected his courtship a few times, now it really marvels me to see a teenage friendship beginning to transform its shape in the maturity cycle. It was totally unbelievable and implausible when I accepted him as a part of my life. I did not see that day come when I was young. Never did I. Same to Kevin. Extraordinary cases do happen once in a while I believe. [Kevin, am I right?] Now that we are on our own, we will walk the extra mile with my parents’ supportive prayers and blessings as well as my extended family’s well wishes. Oh yes, I pray that God will watch over us especially in developing a stronger spiritual life too.
Financial
Bankruptcy crept into my parents’ sleeves during the 2nd quarter of the year. Facing the legal actions from various banks is not easy. PTPTN loan is a pain in the ass for they have delayed my payment since July 2005 till now. I really dislike the way they pushed the faults to one another. Back in August, working as a part time telemarketer in CFC while Communications Assistant in NIC simultaneously was a little strenuous; it’s never effortless to juggle time between two part-time work and studies at the same time. Furthermore, it was my final semester but I had no choice to earn more for a living. Who else can I depend on financially? Now that I am working full-time and more commitments are to be made financially, do I see a choice in monetary terms? You tell me.
Spiritual
I have to be honest that I will answer God frankly with the nonchalant lifestyle I went through last year. But at times, I can be really on fire for Him; I need to be pushed at times. Bad Grace! Praying unceasingly, that’s for sure, but that’s not enough to live like a Christian. I need to be a living grace to my friends. Reading the Word sporadically is a dreadful habit that I have to change for 2006. However, I am still clinging onto my faith upon Him in spite of all downfalls that I went through in 2005.
Personal Development
I have sought over again and again that my problematic issues have made me to be hot-tempered person. It’s an appalling matter to see myself throwing tantrums at times. Once again in 2005, I had to make multiple decisions of life. Remember Pastor Chris told us that the more decisions we make in life, the more matured we would grow. Hopefully this had transformed me to understand more about hardship in life. Knowing that money is hard earned and I tried not to spend unnecessarily. I have also learnt to develop a more caring attitude towards my family. I know a troubled family will always need utmost support from each other. However, I am repeatedly told by my dear friend, Yvonne that I am a diamond in the rough. Despite facing many crossroads in life, I will always crawl out with a refreshed look. No doubt, I know that all the unpleasant moments in the past year had moulded me to be a tougher person in life. I will survive!
Social
Friends come and go at this age. Acquaintances and long-lost friends outnumbered those that I am keeping in touch with. Thanks to Friendster.com that I am still being able to view the whereabouts of my friends. However, we move on and make new friends. It must be the Malaysian Idols 2 that has created a mega blast of new friendships. Having myself joining the Bluehyppo forum (during the Spectaculars) and Daniel Lee Official Fan Club forum (after his triumph at Grand Finale), the amount of people in my Friendster network and MSN contact list grew fatter. Now I refer to most of them as Pinkies that consists of Daniel’s fans from all walks of life. Because of this, I grew to enjoy the companionship of mature adults like Uncle Lee, Aunty Swan, Aunty Jean, Aunty Wendy, Uncle Frankie, Aunty Quiny, Teng’s mother and et cetera. Come to think about it, I did not really mix with the younger Pinkies. Perhaps I am more in tune with the older ones. However, it’s a weekly habit to meet each other ever since then.
Resolutions of 2006
I just wanna achieve my career goals as a Promotions & Events executive in CFC. The more contacts I create, the more income I generate, it sounds as easy as ABC. I hope to be healthy throughout the year without worrying my family members. Losing weight has always been a yearly dream. Let’s see how far I can go this time.
Happy New Year!
With love