Happy October

October's supposed to seem enthusiastic. But I don't seem to feel right.
It's the last quarter of the year and it's 2 months away from Christmas. I am still feeling weird. Peculiar. Bizarre. Whatever it takes to describe how I felt right now.

Today is Justin Johnson's birthday. Ya, it's been a long time since I called him on the phone. And I did it today. Glad to hear from him and I hope he reaches London safely in 13 hours' time.

I am in a strict dilemma. A few people is offering to move out to their place but I do not know how. I have yet to discuss this with my housemates nor my boyfriend. The only reason why I am seeking a new place is COST. Yes, this 4 letter word is driving me insane to save up as much as I can for the rainy days.

On the other hand, my friends are encouraging me to stay with a Christian home so that I won't go astray. Some are encouraging me to move if I want to live in a cheaper budget and I don't need to worry about the bills and so forth.

I don't know. It's only October. It's too early to talk about moving elsewhere and at the same time, I don't have the guts to MOVE in and out. I hate to MOVE. The amount of things in the room is simply terrifying for a young lady like me.

Not for the moment. I just don't like the idea of moving even though I know I have to save up as much as I can.

Yearning for God

It's been a long while since I felt that I'm deprived for the Lord's blessing. I can't even breathe properly in this influential secular world. All I can do is to pray and ask God for forgiveness when I sin terribly. Whether the sin is minor or major, it is still considered a SIN. Yet, we are so versatile till we need God to again and again remind us that we are nothing without Him.

I felt blessed with the worship retreat camp during the weekend. I was blessed with two anointed pastors to guide us in the worship ministry and of course to be an honour to serve in GFS.

I am actually very exhausted after the camp because I hardly slept. I only slept at 4:30am and woke up at 6:55am this morning. Thanks to the games we had with other brothers and sisters in Christ. You guys rocked!

To come to think about it, we can't judge one another till ourselves are living in the right way. I sometimes admit that I can be judgemental but I need to scrutinize myself thoroughly before I hit my eyes upon someone else. Where is the B-I-B-L-E? There are times I could ask myself this question. And I shouldn't be asking that by now.

I have to make it a point to turn my eyes upon the BOOK that consists of 66 books. Okay, Bible consists of 66 books. I have stopped somewhere in the middle and I have to resume. I have sinned against Him for not doing my daily devotion. What a bad girl I am.

My conscience is still working. I will work on my spiritual life.

I need the Lord's anointing and the Holy Spirit to guide me straight in this.

I AM A CHRISTIAN. Therefore, I shall live like one. Without CHRIST, "I-A-N" = "I am Nothing"!

Hence, good night and sweet dreams after prayers!